Do not let your feelings take over your life. This is not about the chances you missed. It’s not about what others think about you. It’s not about what you want them to see or hear. Even if you feel that you are already putting so much effort into it, that you are thinking
If you got lost, and go and take a chance. Pick another direction and keep going till you find your way back.
Feel like you missed your opportunity? Then all the more you should grab even the biggest of the biggest opportunities!
What do you want? What do you want to achieve? What if you make it? What if you don’t?
Who cares? If this is what you need to do, to get one step closer to your dream, then grab the opportunity. Do whatever it takes.